Sister Glauser’s Farewell Talk

I think it was about 5 or six years ago I stood at this very pulpit for my sister’s farewell and told a lot of you this story, so let me quick catch up the rest of you. When my sister Keesha had received her mission call and was preparing to leave, we sat as a family chatting about how crazy it was she was going on a mission. My dad mentioned how he blessed her in her baby blessing that she would be a missionary, but he didn’t realize when he blessed her that it meant an actual mission. At that point we all lost it just laughing that instead of marriage, she was serving a mission. My dad turned to me with a complete serious face right then and said, “I said the exact same thing in your blessing.” It was a lot funnier before it became my reality!

Ever since that day my dad told me of my baby blessing, I always felt like I would go on a mission. Right before the age was changed I decided I would just drop it and worry about it when the time came. And of course right after my world was flip upside down and I was able to go right then at 19. I had friends and family text me right after and say, “So… are your mission papers started?” Oh brother. I did not want to go. After fighting that battle in my head last November, I realized Heavenly Father wouldn’t give me inspiration unless I made a decision, so my decision was not to go. (Because I didn’t want to pray and get an answer that I should go.) All my other plans in life were falling apart in the mean time. I couldn’t decide on a major, if I wanted to transfer schools, and I didn’t feel like being social. One day driving home from a friend’s house I just cried. I cried out loud to my Heavenly Father asking him to help me because nothing was working out. This sounds ridiculous, but I literally asked for the desire to have the desire to submit to His will.

At that point in my mission process I hadn’t exactly had a “mighty change of heart” that we hear about in Alma. I didn’t have a desire to have a change of heart. I was seeking for the desire to change, and I knew only Heavenly Father could help me gain that desire.

Alma tells us that even if we can no more than desire to believe, we need to let the desire work in us, until we believe.

That was my start. I knew I needed the desire. I knew that until I conformed to the will of God, I would not be a true converted disciple of Christ.

And just like gaining the desire to change comes through the Atonement of Christ, so does the actual change.

Elder Bednar said:

“The essence of the gospel of Jesus Christ entails a fundamental and permanent change in our very nature made possible through the Savior’s Atonement. True conversion brings a change in one’s beliefs, heart, and life to accept and conform to the will of God and includes a conscious commitment to become a disciple of Christ.”

True conversion brings a change in your beliefs, heart and life, to accept and conform to the will of God. He mentions that the change is not only fundamental, but it’s permanent.

Maybe it’s only me, but that purely gives me anxiety. Just the word permanent scares me because I’m pretty sure I’m nothing close to perfect.

Mosiah 27:26 “And thus they become new creatures; and unless they do this, they can in nowise inherit the kingdom of God”

Unless we permanently convert we can’t inherit the Kingdom of God, Brothers and Sisters, what is more important than that? Before we came to this Earth, It’s obvious that each of us in this room told Heavenly Father that we could gain a body to go through trials, and become like Him. We didn’t come here only to live with Him again. If our goal is to live with Him we wouldn’t have left. Our goal was to become like Him and to become like Him and inherit what He has we must be permanently converted through Christ.

5 months later (after deciding against a mission) on March 26th I was having an awful day. I remember it being a day where nothing actually went wrong. The day was fine. But I felt empty. I felt like I was depending on friends, family, and worldly things for my happiness and I felt like nothing could change that. I felt hopeless. I stayed up until 2:00 AM reading talks on hope, and as soon as I shut my computer the word “mission” popped in my mind. I couldn’t believe it! It was the last thing I had thought of for months! I shut my eyes and tried as hard as I could to think of every single reason why I shouldn’t go on a mission. Not one thing came to mind. Within seconds of thinking of a mission, I knew it would be a good plan for me. I read my patriarchal blessing quickly after, and prayed and by 2:30 AM I was pretty set on serving a mission. The next week I read over scriptures that had stuck out to me for months earlier, on missionary work, bought books about it, fasted in church, and asked for a father’s blessing. I couldn’t deny that I was called to the work. I was as some would say, on a “spiritual high.” I had felt myself change, and I remember thinking ‘this feeling will never go away. It’s too amazing.’

In the 5 months after I got my call I began to slip. My bishop counseled me to stick to my decision because it was good. I would be tempted with every sin. Satan would try to make me not worthy, or feel apathy. Well lucky for me, I wasn’t tempted with my worthiness, but unlucky for me, I was tempted to become apathetic. And for a while I let Satan win. It got to the point that I knew I had felt a change of heart, but I could not feel it inside me anymore. I became more interested in the clothes I bought for my mission rather than my actual mission. I became more interested in just playing as much as I could before I left and taking advantage of the world possessions I have, rather than taking more time to prepare for my next 18 months. It wasn’t that I was making wrong decisions it was that I wasn’t making the very best decisions that would help me feel the spirit. And I for sure wasn’t feeling the spirit like I knew I could and should be. I felt myself reach that low point again that I felt back in March 26th, and I had brought it on myself. And although I brought it on myself, there was absolutely no way I could get out of it by myself.

In Brad Wilcox’s book ‘The Continuous Conversion’ he talks of teens coming home from a spiritual high at Youth Conference hoping to keep that spiritual high, all the time. He also gives the example of missionaries who come home hoping for the same, but quickly lose that spiritual high right after.

He says that:

“True conversion is more than a fleeting emotional response to a spiritual experience. It is a spiritual response even after experiences have passed and emotions have faded. It is not temporary, but permanent. It is not accidental, but intentional. It is not intermittent, but continuous. And continuous conversion is possible only as we apply the continuous Atonement of Jesus Christ.”

I want to ask you all now, from Alma 5:26, if you have felt a change of heart, can you feel so now? I now know that it is impossible to permanently retain a “mighty change of heart” without the Lord’s help. And I can now testify from my own experiences that Our Savior will help you and me receive and retain that change of heart because He wants our loyal discipleship.

Whether you’re still seeking the desire to change, or you’ve felt a change of heart, or you’re on the road of continuous conversion of discipleship, I echo Elder Holland’s words when he says, that maybe on the judgment day God will ask us, “Did you love me?” and just maybe we’ll be able to stammer out “Yea, Lord, thou knowest that I love thee,” Then He may remind us that the crowning characteristic of love is always loyalty.

Brothers and sisters I testify that this gospel is true. We didn’t come to Earth just to return home again, we came to Earth to become like God. It’s time to gain the strength through Christ to become His disciples. A kid in the Hurricane YSA ward said in his testimony that we need to “refrain from shallow living.” Every single one of us in this room chose to follow Heavenly Fathers plan and if we were loyal to His plan then, why shouldn’t we continue to be loyal to the plan now? Shouldn’t we continue to be loyal to our Savior and Redeemer and our Almighty Father in Heaven today, right now? Shouldn’t we refrain from the shallow things of life and commit to changing permanently? I know that no matter how hard it is to continue our conversion as disciple’s of Christ, we will never be alone. The more we are loyal to our Heavenly Father’s plan, the more we can apply the atonement of Jesus Christ to help keep that permanent change of heart we read about in Alma chapter 5.

I know that the Atonement is real. I’ve felt it change my life. I stand by my friend Charity Suttner when she said that “even if I was the only person on this Earth, I know that my Savior loves me enough to suffer and die for just me so that I can live again. He would have done it for every one of us individually.”

The Book of Mormon is true. I know it because I’ve read it and asked, just like Moroni told us to. I testify that if you are unsure, all you have to do is ask and you will receive an answer. I’m so grateful for the people who wrote it through revelation and protected it. I’m thankful for Joseph Smith giving his life for the restoration of this gospel. I know that he truly saw God and Christ that day in the sacred grove. I know that Thomas S. Monson is a true prophet and I know that because I have felt his words inspire me and teach me. I’m so excited to serve a mission. I’m really nervous, and feel incapable, but I know that God wouldn’t call me to His work if I had to do it alone or couldn’t do it. I know that my call to South Carolina was called from Heavenly Father through his Prophets.

Again, I testify of the truthfulness of this gospel. I especially want my parents and siblings to know that I know this is the true church. I’ve felt it change my heart and make me better and for that I’m eternally indebted to my Savior. And if any of you are doubting or losing that change you’ve felt, I invite each of you to ask Heavenly Father if it’s true, and I promise your prayers will be answered.

I say these things in the name of my savior, Jesus Christ, Amen.

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I had a farewell

I’m so thankful for everyone who came to support me. I could feel the spirit all morning through church, and it was just as great afterwards at our house. I’m so thankful for such an amazing family, and for friends who support me in everything I do. Love you guys!

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-Lexi Glauser

For a Wise and Glorious Purpose Thou Hast Placed Me Here on earth.

I feel like Heavenly Father has made it obvious that the lesson I’ve needed in my life these past three weeks is PATIENCE. It took three weeks for me to become aware of my impatience I’ve had with myself, and especially with God’s timing.

Patience is the capacity to endure affliction without anger, anxiety, worrying or being nervous. Being patient is following Gods timing and will. To fully “Let Thy will be done.”  To me, patience is clearly a Godly attribute. Which honestly scares me to death that I struggle with it so bad, when it’s undoubtedly an attribute we all need.

It’s sometimes hard for me to go with the flow. Ever since I decided to go on a mission I’ve been 1,000 X’s more worried about marriage. LIKE AM I GOING TO BE A GRANDMA AND NEVER MARRY? I dissect my Patriarchal Blessing over and over again. I rehearse in my head how old I’ll be when I get home, and how every guy I’ve ever known will already be married, and my best friends will all have six kids going on seven. I’ll meet lots of single guys at college and they’ll all find out I’m an RM and freak out and go date then marry all the new 18 year old freshman. (lol oh yeah my mission is only 18 months not 12 years.)

But seriously! It freaks me out! Why can’t I just have a glimpse of who my husband will be, and what my family will be like?? I show Heavenly Father my impatience every single day just by the small worried thoughts that fly by in my mind. Neil A Maxwell said,

“Patience is tied very closely to faith in our Heavenly Father. Actually, when we are unduly impatient we are suggesting that we know what is best—better than does God. Or, at least, we are asserting that our timetable is better than His. Either way we are questioning the reality of God’s omniscience as if, as some seem to believe, God were on some sort of postdoctoral fellowship and were not quite in charge of everything.”

Holy cow. 

I pray every single day to feel the spirit stronger and help prepare me for what’s coming in my future, and the motivation to do it. But then 5 minutes later I think, “Who am I going to marry? I want to marry someone exactly that is this way, or that way. Man, I really wish I wasn’t going through this right now. WHY AM I GOING THROUGH THIS RIGHT NOW? Why do I have to go on a mission at this time instead of earlier? I’m 20! Almost 21! What was the point in changing the age when I didn’t even heed to the call and go a year and a half ago?” Etc. Obviously that’s pretty dramatic. But really, I do question why my life is happening the way it is, rather than the way I planned it in my head. I didn’t realize that every single day, my impatience is a flashing red light showing Satan and Heavenly Father that I am questioning the reality of God’s omniscience. And what better way to lose the spirit, and the Light than to question God’s timing, and show Satan that I am shakable, and weak.

The good news is that God is patient with us. (Like I said, patience is a Godly attribute) He is there to lift us up. He is there to give us patience to endure. He’s there to help us understand that patience isn’t just getting bye with a  smile on your face, but more to know that it’s enduring because we’ll be happier that way, and more refined.

Elder Maxwell puts it perfect,

“Patience helps us to use, rather than to protest, these seeming flat periods of life, becoming filled with quiet wonder over the past and with anticipation for that which may lie ahead, instead of demeaning the particular flatness through which we may be passing at the time. We should savor even the seemingly ordinary times, for life cannot be made up all of kettledrums and crashing cymbals. There must be some flutes and violins. Living cannot be all crescendo; there must be some dynamic contrast.”

How much happier my mission will be because of the extra preparation I’ve gotten from not leaving right when I was 19 when the age was changed. How much happier I will be to find a husband who has prepared for me, and I for him for at LEAST 18 extra months. How much more LOVE I will have for my family from leaving them for 18 months, to help other families become closer to the Lord. There are literally no “cons”, “downs” or “negatives” to being patient, and trusting in the Lord’s timing. I can’t say it is easy, but I know from experience that God does know me personally, and He knows exactly what will make me a better person, more God-like, and more prepared to live with Him again. He has placed me on this Earth for a wise and glorious purpose. With my impatience I’ll never understand my purpose, but with the patience He gives me, I will be able to do His will and find my purpose. And because I know that, I know that when I ask in faith to receive more patience, He gladly gives me enough to get by until I ask again. He waits for me to asks so that He can bless me. For that I’m extremely grateful, and definitely humbled.

With patience from God, we can literally fulfill any wise and glorious purpose He has created us for. It just makes sense that if God put us here for a glorious purpose, then He has a glorious way for us to follow patiently.

If you want to read an INCREDIBLE talk, pull out your dictionary and keep it near as you read Patience, by Neil A. Maxwell.

Happy Sunday xoxo

– Lex

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The Lord Will Qualify Me

The Lord did indeed call me in my weakness. But with faith, He will also qualify me for His work.

Unlike the world, when I do something that is in accordance to what my Heavenly Father wants me to do, He helps me fit the part. Rather than the other, where you must fit the part before you can do anything. It’s interesting that to get a job, you must have experience. Which to me makes absolutely no sense. You can’t receive experience until you experience it, right? If it were up to the worlds standards for me to go on a mission, I’d never be able to go. I’ve never walked door to door every day for 18 months before. I’ve never woken up at 6:00 AM only to follow an exact schedule for 18 months. I’ve never lived far from home just to be transferred every few weeks to live with a different girl every time. I’ve for sure never ridden a bike in a skirt before! It’s literally one of the last things I want to do. I’m just thankful Heavenly Father calls me to the work, not the president.

In my favorite General Conference talk, The Challenge to Become, Elder Oaks says,

“In contrast to the institutions of the world, which teach us to know something, the gospel of  Jesus Christ challenges us to become something.”

The world wants us to know something. They want us to know exactly how to file important papers. They want us to know how to do the things a business man would know how to do, even before we do it. The Lord wants us to become something. He wants to become the business man that understands why he is filing those papers in a certain way. He wants us to become the business man that understands why it’s important and does it because he is a business man. Not just because he knows how to do it, or is just following the motions because the boss told him too. The Lord wants the business man’s thoughts and actions to be for real intent, because they love what their doing and they understand it’s important. Not just because he knows how.

Maybe that’s a crazy, crazy way to look at it, but it makes it more simple to me. Heavenly Father isn’t setting me up to fail. He isn’t making me know how to do all the missionary things before I was called or even now as I prepare to go. He has called me, and with my faithfulness and His saving grace, I will be qualified. It is scary though. Like I said, I’ve never been a missionary. It’s hard just preparing for the MTC (the place where you go to for real prepare) to become a missionary. It’s hard to get through my head that I need to become a missionary. Right now, just as a member of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-Day Saints. I don’t need to study just because missionaries do that sort of thing. I need to become one.

In Brad Wilcox’s book, The Continuous Conversion, He talks about the same thing. He explains it as learning not earning. Rather than knowing/earning (racking up points from the boss because you know how to file papers), it’s about becoming/learning (to be a business man and understanding the importance of becoming that person.)  He says,

“I take one day at a time, one hour at a time, and sometimes even one minute at a time, but I don’t give up because I know my efforts will pay off. Not because of all I’m earning, but because of all I’m learning (or becoming.) Earning can lead to pressure, competition, and even rebellion and apathy. Learning can lead to humility, patience, cooperation, growth, and enthusiasm.”

What I love about preparing for a mission is the fact that I know my efforts will pay off. I feel my Savior teaching me, lifting me up, and qualifying me. All though I’m far from becoming a 100% qualified missionary (or qualified human being), I don’t feel pressure, competition, rebellion or apathy. I can tell Heavenly Father is teaching me humility, patience and growth even though sometimes all I want to do is resist.
I love being a part of this gospel. I love that we are humbled just by knowing we don’t have all the power we think we do, and Christ will show us how to gain the power He has, and become like He is. We’re not expected to be perfect paper filers before actually getting the job. We’re expected to follow the steps that Christ has shown us, so that we can slowly become perfect business men or women.
I’m not going to be the best missionary because I’ve hit my total amount in brownie points from attending the temple or reading Preach My Gospel, I’m going to qualify as a Missionary of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-Day Saints because my Savior is helping me learn how to become one.
I think this hymn sums up my feelings exactly,
“So trusting my all to thy tender care,
And knowing thou lovest me,
I’ll do thy will with a heart sincere:
I’ll be what you want me to be.”
If He can teach a 14 year old boy how to restore the gospel fully, I know without a doubt He can teach me how to be a missionary. I know that because I felt the spirit testify to me it’s what He wants me to do, and I know He wouldn’t have me do anything I’m not capable of learning through the spirit.
Although most people would think, (and I DID think before I got my call) that, “It’s just a mission. It’s only 1 1/2- 2 years. It really isn’t that big of a deal Lexi. You really should relax about it”  I’ve come to realize that it is a big deal. This is the Lords work. I wasn’t expecting to be called, and in reality I wasn’t exactly hoping for it either. But I can’t deny the spirit I felt that told me this is my next step in life, and even though it will be difficult, especially for me (the homesick queen) I know that it is the work of God, and I have been called. I echo Elder Anderson’s strong testimony,
“I have heard President Monson say, “Whom the Lord calls, the Lord qualifies.” I know this is true, and it gives me hope looking beyond my own inadequacies. I know that when we are on the Lord’s errand, he will be with us, he will strengthen us, he will build our capacities. I have experienced it. I have felt his lifting Spirit. In the months and years ahead, I will need him so very much.”
– (The future) Sister Glauser The Second
(LOLZ guys I’m going to sign every letter home, “Sister Glauser II”)
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The Best Day of My 20 Year Old Life

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(Missing Ky and Jen in the pictures because they had to run, but the whole fam was there!)

Today was the literal B E S T day of my life. I had the opportunity to go through the temple with my entire family and it was amazing, to say the very least. I remember growing up thinking that yeah, I always wanted to get married in the temple and nothing less.. but that’s all it really was for me. Nothing deeper. I had absolutely no idea, even after studying, how important the temple is and how much it changed my life just for being inside for a short time.

I’m so so excited to “teach the nations of the world” about the true happiness they can find inside.

I know, without one doubt that this is the only true, restored church on the Earth. I am so grateful for the knowledge I have gained throughout my small 20 years because it’s made the difference in my happiness, perspective, and strength. I’m grateful my parents, and all 4 siblings taught me by example how important the gospel is, and to center my life around it.

I know that I’m being sent to South Carolina for so many reasons, and I can’t wait to be a servant of the Lord and find those reasons. I’m still so nervous, but I continue to feel strengthened every single day from friends, family, and most importantly Heavenly Father.

I know Heavenly Father sent me certain friends to be my angels because my testimony has grown from all of theirs. Of course, that goes for my family too. Elder Holland said,

when we speak of those who are instruments in the hand of God, we are reminded that not all angels are from the other side of the veil. Some of them we walk with and talk with—here, now, every day. Some of them reside in our own neighborhoods. Some of them gave birth to us, and in my case, one of them consented to marry me. Indeed heaven never seems closer than when we see the love of God manifested in the kindness and devotion of people so good and so pure that angelicis the only word that comes to mind.

So many of the people in my life can only be described as angelic because of the influence they have made in my life. Those influences led me to prepare to serve a mission in South Carolina, as well as go through the temple without an overwhelming feeling and a peaceful one instead. I’m forever grateful to those people.

I know this church is true. It is. And I love it. I can’t wait to help others come to love it as well.

My Most Important Adventure Thus Far

I wrote this post before I got my call and wasn’t sure if I’d post it. But since not very many people knew I was making this decision, I thought I’d let whoever wants to know, know how I decided and a little how I’m feeling:

And here’s the video of the opening if you choose: Mission Call Opening 

So, as you can tell.. I’m serving a mission. And to say the least, my heart is full. Ever since the day I made the decision to serve a mission, I’ve felt my Heavenly Father’s love stronger than I ever have in my entire life.

For those of you interested in why, and how I decided to serve a mission.. here you go. This is especially for my family.

Yes this is personal, but I think it’s important to share how I have gained my testimony. March 25th, around 2AM (so technically March 26th) was when I decided. I had a L O N G, H A R D day. It’s hard to explain why it was hard, because I didn’t even have a stressful, busy day. My mind never slowed down, I felt hopeless, I was 100% scared of my future, and as hard as it is to admit I felt that nothing could stop the fear and hopelessness I felt. I guess Satan knew what was coming because he was working on me big time. So, after lots of tears for no reason other than no faith, I watched and read three conference talks on replacing fear with faith, and Hope.

(Here is the link to the most inspiring one: The Infinite Power of Hope)

Not even a minute after I finished the talks and closed lds.org did the word “mission” pop into my mind. I wish I could just pull my feelings out of my heart and put them on this post so everyone could experience it, because it was incredible. I was so confused as to why I was even considering a mission at 2 AM after months of pushing it out of my mind.

{Let’s press rewind really fast.. I’ve always considered a mission. It was more of a “when I’m 21 I’ll decide” type of thing. Then with the mission age change I was pretty set on going. The only problem was that I had absolutely NO desire of going. It sounded like the worst thing ever. I didn’t even want to pray about it because I didn’t want a chance of it being right for me. Then it hit me that I am a girl, I don’t have to go.. so that was that. I decided not to go and I felt good about it. for 6 months at least.}

So once a mission came to mind I closed my eyes and literally tried to be scared of a mission and push it out of my mind. (haha oops) But my mind wasn’t having it. Turns out it’s SUPER hard to deny something that is right. I wasn’t scared anymore. I thought about the things that could be scary about a mission.. aka everything, and none of it scared me. I only felt excited, and peace that I finally figured out my next step in life. I quickly read my Patriarchal Blessing afterwords and many parts in it clicked for me. There are a couple main parts in it that since the day I got it I kind of knew meant I would be some type of missionary, but I never wanted to think about it much hoping I was wrong. But reading it that night and knowing I was making the right decision was the best feeling ever. It feels so amazing knowing I’m finally letting myself submit to the will of God, rather than hoping He’ll let me do my own thing without guilt or fear.

The next morning right after class I called my mom to tell her my good news. She informed me that the night before around 1:30 AM when I told her I was reading talks because I couldn’t sleep (and obviously she couldn’t either) she said she knew I would serve a mission. She could just feel it. When I was chatting with her on the phone some scriptures came to mind that I read a couple months ago. Next to the scriptures I had written,

“Serve a mission? 11/9/12”

They read:

(D&C 11)

13 Verily, verily, I say unto you, I will impart unto you of my Spirit, which shall enlighten your mind, which shall fill your soul with joy;

 14 And then shall ye know, or by this shall you know, all things whatsoever you desire of me, which are pertaining unto things ofrighteousness, in faith believing in me that you shall receive.

 15 Behold, I command you that you need not suppose that you are called to preach until you are called.

 16 Wait a little longer, until you shall have my word, my rock, my church, and my gospel, that you may know of a surety my doctrine.

 17 And then, behold, according to your desires, yea, even according to your faith shall it be done unto you.

 18 Keep my commandments; hold your peace; appeal unto my Spirit;

 19 Yea, cleave unto me with all your heart, that you may assist in bringing to light those things of which has been spoken—yea, the translation of my work; be patient until you shall accomplish it.

 20 Behold, this is your work, to keep my commandments, yea, with all your might, mind and strength.

 21 Seek not to declare my word, but first seek to obtain my word, and then shall your tongue be loosed; then, if you desire, you shall have my Spirit and my word, yea, the power of God unto the convincing of men.

What is the most interesting part to me, is I have felt a change of heart in my studying habits. I have wanted to learn the gospel, and I have felt my testimony grow immensely. I didn’t know I was preparing myself to serve a mission by any means.. but I’m thankful for everything I went through to get me to this point. I’m thankful my Heavenly Father helped me obtain his word, and helped me gain more faith so that I can try to be an obedient missionary for Him.

In D&C 12 I also marked these scriptures the same time..

 3 Behold, the field is white already to harvest; therefore, whoso desireth to reap let him thrust in his sickle with his might, and reap while the day lasts, that he may treasure up for his soul everlasting salvation in the kingdom of God.

 4 Yea, whosoever will thrust in his sickle and reap, the same is called of God.

 5 Therefore, if you will ask of me you shall receive; if you will knock it shall be opened unto you.

 6 Now, as you have asked, behold, I say unto you, keep my commandments, and seek to bring forth and establish the cause of Zion.

 7 Behold, I speak unto you, and also to all those who have desires to bring forth and establish this work;

 8 And no one can assist in this work except he shall be humble and full of love, having  faith, hope, and charity, being temperate in all things, whatsoever shall be entrusted to his care.

 9 Behold, I am the light and the life of the world, that speak these words, therefore give heed with your might, and then you are called. Amen.

I’m still unsure of why Heavenly Father decided it’s okay for me to go at this time, maybe it’s for myself, maybe it’s for my family, or the people I will meet and teach.. But I’m super thankful it is now. Don’t get me wrong, I am very nervous now that the reality has set in. My bishop counseled me to remember the feelings I felt when the spirit first testified to me that this decision was a good one. He reminded me that Satan will work harder than he ever has. Especially when the time comes closer for me to go through the temple. He said, “He will make you doubt. But don’t give in.” Oh BOY have I felt doubts already. One of the greatest feelings ever though is knowing I’m being tempted, knowing my original decision was and still is correct, and that I can ask my Father in Heaven for help. The spirit continues to reconfirm to me that a mission is right for me.

I’ve felt unsure of myself, doubtful that I can leave my family for so long, unsure of my abilities to learn in the MTC, to teach by the spirit at all times, to stay motivated and obedient… pretty much every area I could feel doubt in.. I’ve felt it. I’ve felt feelings of embarrassment in telling people my decision, that they might judge me as a person, judge my capabilities and my motives. Although those feelings are strong, and some come often, I’ve never felt a lack of love from Heavenly Father. I’ve felt the spirit closer than ever, and I’ve felt more purpose to my mission on this Earth. I’ve had a greater understanding in the things I read and study, I’ve felt more love for the people around me, I’ve had more patience and confidence, and I’ve felt less judgmental and more forgiving.

I have a testimony of my Father in Heaven, my Savior Jesus Christ, and in the Holy Ghost. I know they have my best interest in mind, they see what I can become, they love me and they bid me to come follow Christ. I know Joseph Smith was and is a true prophet of God. I admire his faith and obedience more than ever before. I understand more to a small degree how much faith it took for a 14 year old to do the things he did. It gives me hope, although I’m not a prophet of God, that through the Atonement, and through my faith, I can fulfill my mission as Lexi Glauser, as well as Sister Glauser and as a 20 year old daughter of God. I know the Book Of Mormon is another testament of Christ. The spirit testifies to me that it is the true word, and I feel so blessed to know men of faith gave their lives proclaiming it’s truths and protecting it, so that I can read from it every day. I’m so grateful for my Savior. I’m grateful that because He stood alone, and gave His life, I don’t have to. I can live again because Christ loves me enough as an individual, to suffer my sins and die for me. Even though I understand that a mission will be hard work, and will take 18 months of my life far from my family, I still feel that it is a small, small sacrifice to show my Savior I love him.

And now that I have my call to the South Carolina Columbia Mission, I want to add that I’m super, super excited. Right now I don’t feel nervous ONE bit. I feel comforted and excited. I prayed so, so hard that I would love the place I am called to and that I would have an understanding that there is a reason for me to serve there. I know without a doubt that prayers are answered. My Heavenly Father gave me that understanding and I am so excited to teach the people in South Carolina. I know that I was preparing before this life, to answer to THIS SPECIFIC call to serve, and as I continue to prepare and ask for my Saviors help, I can feel myself becoming a little more ready everyday.

Video

This Easter Season

None Were With Him

I know I’m a little early for the Easter post.. but I hope everyone who sees this link will take the time to watch this. (on their own, in private)
Yes, it’s old. but it’s by far one of the best.
If I’m being honest, most every Easter season for me is about the holiday, family, and new clothes aspect.
This season, I’m not really sure what happened. Whatever happened I’m super grateful it did. I feel a different kind of love and gratitude for my Savior. I’m starting to realize slowly how HUGE Christ’s sacrifice was. Don’t get me wrong, I’ve always been thankful and known the facts, but not on a personal level like I do now. Like my friend Chari said in her farewell talk, you gain a testimony when you know that Christ would have suffered for your sins and died for you even if you were the ONLY person on the Earth. That’s how much he loves each of us. Even someone who is so lost in sin, and feels they can never come back.. He would have sacrificed His life just for them. I’m so grateful for the Atonement. I’m so grateful for the resurrection of Christ so that we can live again with Him. I know these things are real because the Holy Ghost has testified it to me. Although it might not mean much coming from a 20 year old.. I just want everyone who sees this to know what I know, and hopefully feel the same type of feelings I feel from watching this video and believing Jeffrey R. Holland’s words are true.